The big 3 by age 43 Leukemia, Congestive Heart Failure, Diabetes

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The big 3 by age 43 Leukemia, Congestive Heart Failure, Diabetes


Some of you reading this are probably wondering why I am sharing so many details of my life? Good question, I often ask myself the same. Is it because I want you to feel sorry for me? I THINK NOT! Or maybe I am living in fear? On the contrary, I have faced death so many times prior to my illnesses, I've literally lost count. Daily it seems like there is a loaded gun, a .357 magnum pointed at my head. Because by this time in my life, I have been diagnosed with diabetes, had a second heart attack (without knowing it), which did considerable damage to my heart, and what I hope is the final blow to my health, Leukemia.

While attending a funeral, my friend, Wesley Thomas, stated to me he heard about some of my challenges and suggested I share my story. The reason I share my testimonies with you are because I have been remarkably BLESSED. And I want you to grasp the Blessings in your life also,  through your own life's challenges!     You are not alone...

At the time I was diagnosed with leukemia I was very sick and immediately admitted into the hospital, complicated by my heart condition and diabetes. The doctor suggested that I get my living will done, which should have been done any way, and affairs together. I was truly devastated! I was not devastated because I was afraid to die, which was not the case. I was devastated because of the uncertainty not knowing whats going to happen to my wife and kids. You see, my mother passed away when I was age 15 and my father 4 yrs latter during my 1st year in college. I recalled how hard times were for my brother (my only sibling) and I. And the depression that followed was incapacitating.

I thought I was cursed because my parents were in and out of the hospital during my formative years and taken from me back to back. Even though my father saw me graduate, my mother was not there. Both parents never had the chance to meet my wife or their grand kids. My wonderful wife and kids never met my parents. I did not want my kids to go through the same turmoil that I did. I wanted to be there for their graduations. I want to be there when they get married and give my daughters away. I want to be there to see my grand kids. But suddenly it simply seem to me that was not going to be the case.

Definition

Chronic myelogenous leukemia is cancer that starts inside bone marrow, the soft tissue inside bones that helps form blood cells. The cancer grows from cells that produce white blood cells.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
Psalm 23:4 (New King James Version)

Life is Too Short!

Be Blessed

Monday, August 2, 2004

10:39:00 PM CDT
Feeling Happy
Hearing Old School Slow Jams R&B and a little Jazz

Too Blessed To Be Depressed

I remember whenever I asked Mr. Moore, a good friend of my Aunt Jeanette, how he was doing he would always responded by saying, "I am Too Blessed To Be Depressed".
A lot of us hate to get up on Monday mornings. We drag and drag. Some of us get depressed and go to work in a bad mood. Then, we wish our life away for TGIF and POOF we get our wish, the week-end rapidly approaches, passes by and then the whole vicious cycle starts over and over again. The next thing you know the babies have grown up,summer is over. Cherished friends and family passes away... and the next thing you know you're in your 30s, 40s, 60s, 70s years old(if your bless). Regrets start to hit you at different stages in your life.


The words of Mr. Moore were very profound, you see, when I came to get to know Mr. Moore, he had less than 6 months to live, he later passed away on his 70th birthday. I guess as he reflected on the memories of his life, he realized that every day that he spent on this earth was a blessing! Even the bad times and the Monday mornings. He cherished each and every single day. He cherished his daughter,the love of his friends and relatives, the memories of co-workers. As well as those whose paths that he came to cross on his lifes journey. He did not look at Monday morning as a curse, but a blessing to live for and to see.


I wonder how much happier life would be for us, if we too, looked forward to Monday mornings. We need to cherish every moment in life! Even the down side, we need to rejoice in all of the Monday mornings of life that God has brought us through .Think about how Sunday mornings lead into Monday mornings Monday mornings lead into the blessings of, Tue a.m,. Wed. am,Thur.am, Fri a.m. and Sat a.m.(Sabbath Morning) in which God rested because of all the days he made was Good, including Monday mornings.


We must remember when God Made all 7 days of the week, that each day is different and unique with moments of challenges & blessings, everything he made was Good. And it is Good to Be Alive!

Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me
all the days of my life,
and I will live in the house of the Lord
forever. Psalm 23:6 (New Living Translation)

Shalom
Life is Too Short